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Mon, 13 Nov 2006 00:16:08 GMT

Somehow my post on this from the other day disappeared.
My blog has switched it is now http://ahailstone.wordpress.com
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Urgent Need

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 19:24:51 GMT

**EDIT 8:46 PM** My need has been met! God is so good. Thanks to all of you who gave.
So I need around $200.00 by tomorrow

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What's going on with me personally

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 16:04:06 GMT

So, I'm going out on a limb and opening up my heart to everyone that reads this, or stumbles upon this randomly.

   So for the last couple months, I've been tricking myself into believing I'm somewhere spiritually where I'm not. In my head I was saying to myself "I'm in the prayer room 6 hours a day, I'm doing good, a whole lot better than most people in the world." Well most of the time when I was in the prayer room, I was either on my computer, reading a book, or just sitting there wishing I was somewhere else. I wasn't focusing on the Lord, I wasn't encountering Him, and I wasn't growing closer to Him. Inside of my heart I knew this, I felt so far away from the Lord, my heart felt dead and cold and it had felt dead and cold for a couple months, but I kept tricking myself into believing that I was ok and I was fine with where I was at with the Lord.

   Well for the last few days I've been frustrated in the prayer room and I began to realize what was going on in my heart, but still I would come home and say to myself , "You're doing good everything is ok." So yesterday I was sitting in the prayer room, frustrated and angry. The frustration in my heart was from the Lord because it stirred me to hunger. I went into the back empty room of the prayer room and began to write in my notebook everything that was going on in my heart. I realized that I had been satisfied with the very least of God that I could get, I let compromise come into my life, and now I was tired of living like that.

    After that I recommitted everything in my life to the Lord, all my time, money, everything. After I did that my heart felt free and lighter than it had in months. The first thing I felt like I should do was delete my myspace account. It was weird, because in my head whenever I felt a little convicted about Myspace I would tell myself that it was ok and it was a good way to keep in touch with friends. But really it was a distraction and an open door to darkness. I would waste so much valuable time just messing around on myspace when I could be doing better things. So that's why I deleted it, I don't think it's a bad thing, so if you have one I'm not condemning you. I know in my life though it was a distraction.

     So, now you know what's going on with me. Thank you all for praying for me and for ZHOP.

Goodbye myspace

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 05:10:17 GMT

Well just a few minutes ago, while watching a movie with my roommate, I deleted my myspace account.
This wasn't a mistake, it was probably a good thing. I'll type more about that later. Right now I'm going to get back to watching this movie.

Friday, October 20, 2006

Fri, 20 Oct 2006 01:47:34 GMT

   So... I was really lazy today. It's the all staff day off (meaning no required prayer room time or admin work), so I just laid around all day, except for the hour I spent organizing my room and folding laundry. Other than that I have been very very lazy. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing.
   Since I last wrote an entry the prayer room has moved to another temporary location, where you ask? The house that sits in between my house and my uncles house. This house is owned by a family in Oregon, they already have 2 other houses, it was bought to be the ZHOP guest house so when guests speakers come into town to visit they would stay there. 3 of my friends live in it right now. It's kind of weird...no sound system so sets are definitely different. It's really hard to focus for me in there at least, and since my house is right next store I can be in my house distracting myself from prayer in less than a minute, instead of having to walk a longer distance. So I'm having to get all distractions out of the way so I can focus more. I know the Lord has ZHOP in this season for a reason, His leadership is perfect.
   So I don't have a whole lot to write about, It's sad I know. I should think of some things. Well I guess since I don't have anything to say I'll stop typing.

ZHOP Update

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 00:46:58 GMT

Well,
Last night starting at 10 we moved everything out of the old building and into an empty house for storage. It was so weird to see the prayer room empty. And knowing that we'll never be back in that building where I did my first internship and encountered the Lord a lot, makes me sad. I shed a few tears when I left the building for the last time.
After I walked back to my neighborhood I ended up at my uncle's house... a bunch of the staff went inside and just talked and had hot chocolate by the fire place trying to figure out life without a house of prayer for a while. It was good to talk it out and just have fellowship time with friends. We're looking around for a temporary place because we know where we want our permanent place to be, but it will cost a significant amount of money. It's so weird not having a prayer room, nothing in my life makes sense without the prayer room. Right now we're going to meet at the Bennetts(my uncles house) every night for meetings and during the day we have a place where we can all gather and pray, but not actually set up our sound system and do things that ZHOP would usually do. It's really werid, so please keep ZHOP in your prayers as we try and find a temporary place.
Today all the ZHOP staff gathered at my uncles house and had a pot luck haha.. It was a lot of fun and a lot of really really really good food. Tons of food...tons of left overs. It felt like thanksgiving or Christmas without the presents haha. It was so much fun to gather together as one big family. I love it.
As I type this I feel soooooo weird. I want to be in the prayer room!!!!!!!!!!!
It's so funny because usually when I'm in the prayer room I'm looking for ways to get out of the prayer room, but now I'm looking for ways to get into the prayer room.
Please keep ZHOP in your prayers. Go to ZHOP.org to donate to the building fund.

Only God can do something now

Sun, 15 Oct 2006 00:29:22 GMT

So I'm sitting in our last EGS service in the building we're located in now. Everything is pretty much moved out except for the sound system. The Cause USA is back from their 100 days of traveling. It's so good to have them back, it's like a big family reunion. They're all joining us for this last EGS service, the place is packed, it makes me really really happy.

So I say this is our last service, but we don't know where our first service in a new building will be. Only the Lord can do something now haha. I think He likes it that way so He can get all the glory. We've had many many prophetic words and dreams about October 14th and our answer coming them. So we have about 2 and a half hours left to the 14th. God is going to do a miracle and get all the Glory.

Well I better get back to paying attention to EGS, I'm probably being a bad example of ZHOP staff to the visitors sitting next to me :-p .

If you read this before midnight pray for ZHOP

I'll be posting another update later tonight.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 23:55:08 GMT

Just a quick update...before my laptop battery runs out.

Having a name like the Zadok House of Prayer, can cause some confusion.
Here are a few ways I've heard people try and say our name:

1)Zadok -Some people just call ZHOP "Zadok"...used in sentences like this "I was over at Zadok for a prayer meeting today"
2)Zodiac House of Prayer- no we won't tell you your horoscopes
3)Zadok Prayer House- not that weird sounding...but still a little strange
4)House of Zadok- sound's like the name of a cult. Where's the kool aid?
5) Some people pronounce the name Zadok has "zAH-dock"- which just sounds weird.
6)And some people call us IHOP.

There are a few other ways people use..but right now my memory isn't to good.

Busy

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 01:20:11 GMT

So I haven't updated this in awhile because I've been extremely, extremely busy.
ZHOP is moving in a few days... Where you ask? We have no clue...a few ideas...but nothing final.
The Lord knows where we're going though and what building we will be in. It's so much fun... most ministries would be freaking out in this type of situation....for some reason the staff of ZHOP is so joyful and happy right now it's unbelievable. So we're all pretty busy getting ready to make the transition...tomorrow i will be helping pack up the intern/tech office that I share with a bunch of people.. I'm sure that will be fun.
I've been busy with a ton of other stuff recently... I've sung and prayed a lot in the past week and a half because of the fast and having to be at tons of intercession meetings. Sometimes even singing 2 times a day. It's been tough..and I've gotten worn out a lot.
Also Morningstars Harvest Fest Conference was this week and ZHOP had a booth there, so I manned the booth 3 times during the week. It was fun, I got to meet a lot of people. There were tons of vendors and different ministries, all in tents outside so it was fun..kinda like a big fall festival or something. I especially enjoyed the Cheesesteak Subs and French Fries haha.
Speaking of food... I need to go grocery shopping...and I need money to do that. I have absolutely no food at home anymore..none...so I've gone out to eat a few times which is expensive...and other times I just fast haha..but the Lord has been providing, so I've had a good meal each day. I just need to go shopping sometime this weekend..probably tomorrow.
Well..I guess that's really all I have to talk about..it was a very scattered/random post...most of my posts these days turn out like that.

Friday, October 06, 2006

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 06:01:38 GMT

Just a quick update on the rent situation. The Lord provided and I got the rest of the money I needed.
Keep me in prayer about finances though, I need to get a ton more funders.
Thank you all for praying and giving.